Wednesday, April 25, 2012

not as good as it seems

Everything was fine at least a month ago. I enjoyed working there and i kinda loved my job. As time goes by, i realized that things are not as fine as it seemed. Well, my boss said that i did well in my first project then he gave me a break till new project comes. New project came as as the new APM recruited. He got it. Another new project came and it was assigned to one of senior APM. No projects left for me. I end up with assisting one of senior APM who doesn't really need assistance and couldn't be a good tutor for junior. She never makes her project documentation, she never gives status report, she doesn't know her project planning. What is she capable of ? why should i be paired with that kind of person ? It such a waste. Or is this what we call passion ? I don't have passion in this management stuffs like a guy from Microsoft said that i better be specialist instead of generalist. Because every time i see the developers working on their code, i wanna do that too. Every time they learn about new project, i feel that i can do it well, even faster.

I've got some new friends here. We hang out, have lunch or coffee break together. When we spend time together, there will always be gossip about people in a company. At first, it's fun. But the gossip has gone too far. I thought it was just personal aversion to some people. But then i realized that the company is divided into two groups who never like each other. The office is no longer conducive. Fake smiles and satire are all around. The most awkward thing is, i'm in the team which consists of people whom we usually talk about. 

Gosh, this office is so high school.

Or this is what a real world of work like ? intrigue and schemes everywhere.

Thursday, April 19, 2012

fuck!

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!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday, April 15, 2012

Sunday to Monday

I've been trying hard not to hear those who shout "i hate Monday" or whining about Sunday that is coming to an end. I guess they just make Monday even harder by doing that. That's like a negative assertion for our mind which somehow lead us to a negative mood. And i don't want that. I want to be happy to face Monday. Besides there's nothing to be afraid of. Yes, i love holiday. Yes, i have to go to office on Monday. So what ? My working hour starts at 1 pm so i don't have to wake up early after all. 

But, i'm just human. Sometimes i just can't deny that thought. I'm so in the mood to work on my thesis. The thought that i have to be at office tomorrow somehow make me reluctant to work on it. I ever been in the phase where i didn't wanna go to college anymore and wanted to work instead. Now, i miss college. I want to have some classes to attend instead of attending stand up meeting of my project. 

Just saying though. 

Sunday, April 01, 2012

Done

Good things never last long. That's what i always teach to myself. Like a fun weekend that will meet Sunday eventually, Lovers who have to get separated, or best friends who will grow apart. So does with my team project.    

It's been 7 weeks since my first day of working. I have been together with my recent team for 6 weeks development and they're quite nice guys. Cooperative and not really hard to be directed. We even got closer at the end. At first, there were problems. But i learned from mistakes, besides it is my first project and i didn't get any training before war. So, i'm learning by doing. It's a bliss when the project was finished on time and my boss happy with the work because the client is satisfied.

I heard that the technical leader will be assigned to another project while the 3 developers will stay on our project with me as their APM. Suddenly, the boss called all my developers and my APM friend to his room. They packed they stuffs as they came back from the 23rd floor. Apparently, they're assigned to a new project with a new APM. Well, okay. So i'm gonna have to adapt with new developers again on the next project. But for now, i haven't been assigned to any projects so i have no developers for a moment.

Can't wait for the upcoming project.