Aduh bisa gila gw kalo begini terus. Harus pergi menghirup udara luar tapi lagi minggu ujian. Tapi besok libur 3 hari ini denk. Maybe i could go somewhere, alone.
Gini nih males nya gw crush on someone. Melewati masa - masa yang nggak jelas kayak orang bego. Seharian online cuma buat nungguin dia online. Sekalinya orangnya online [bentar doank pula], offline nggak bilang - bilang. Tapi besoknya ... tetep ... stand by depan laptop.
Dan berhubung gw cenderung overreacting, setiap omongan orang nya gw pikirin apa maksudnya. Gw analisa, bikin asumsi yang sebenernya bikin rempong sendiri karena jadi ga konsen ngapa - ngapain. Padahal di waktu yang bersamaan mungkin lagi enak - enak tidur.
Jadi sebenernya itu semua alesan gw selama ini males suka ama orang. Karena bikin ribet kayak orang bego dan jadi nggak produktif.
Think twice deh.
Monday, January 31, 2011
Sunday, January 30, 2011
YAY !
Now i feel like the character in the story that i wrote.
Finally after 2 days of torture, the time comes.
Well, this better be good but .... i don't expect too much though.
And internet sucks, the connection always becomes a barrier
Finally after 2 days of torture, the time comes.
Well, this better be good but .... i don't expect too much though.
And internet sucks, the connection always becomes a barrier
Annoying chatter
I woke up at 8 and straightaway turned on my laptop. It's just like one or two seconds after i sign on my messenger, my friend's message popped up my chat. He told me that he's confused about his thesis and bla bla bla ... actually i didn't really respond him, at least not with appropriate response. I just said "oh yeah ?" "really ?" "hahaha ... good for you". Because i'm not into listening people's complain on this bloody Sunday morning.
But after about 1 hearing him complaining then i think i deserve to get my turn to talk. So i said that i'm not feeling good. But he ignored it and changed the topic into his story again. Damn ! And he start filling me in with his stories again [which i don't really want to hear]. Once he stopped, i think i should grab a chance to talk. This time he listened, but let's see what's his response.
"ah ... unnecessary"
Damn ! Do you think all your complains that you're addressing to me is that necessary ? That's not even more important than a headline in Wartak*ta newspaper.
Why Wartak*ta ? because i think the newspaper is lame. Actually the headline. These are some of their headlines :
"Menantu bos Binus seorang transgender" , actually from the content of the article nothing is related to Binus but yes, her father is sort of Binus director. But that's not the focus, they can just eliminate Binus fromit.
Another one ,
"Tukang ojeg langganan Siti KDI dibunuh" , see ? mo tukang ojeg langganan siapa keq, langganan Julia Perez keq, Lady Gaga keq [Lady gaga naek ojeg ?] , but the focus is not the artist because they're not even in the crime scene.
So that's why i said that newspaper is lame, but at least it fills me in with information not like my friend did to me, filling me in with his complains. Actually that's not problem for me as long as he knows when to talk when to listen. And by the way there's no people on earth who only wants to hear along they life, sometimes they wanna speak up.
Psyched
Finally, today i'm psyched. I decided to call my friend this morning, to tell the story that i wanna tell so bad to at least someone. I can't no longer care about the respond, all i need is listener. And yes, it's releasing. Apparently the problem i have is i only need to share, the rest are just overreacting me.
So i decide to live my life as i want it. For whatever good or bad i just don't to make it harder for me. Being saint or sinner, sorry for this ignorance but i can't no longer become a caring person for a trouble. So i sign off from anxiety club.
Anyway i've just watched 'You again'. This movie is so damn funny. I can't stop laughing while i watch this. Quite entertaining on this possibly troubled Saturday.
Wish that everything's okay tomorrow. Hope i hear a good news tomorrow. Hope i can see what i'm waiting for
So i decide to live my life as i want it. For whatever good or bad i just don't to make it harder for me. Being saint or sinner, sorry for this ignorance but i can't no longer become a caring person for a trouble. So i sign off from anxiety club.
Anyway i've just watched 'You again'. This movie is so damn funny. I can't stop laughing while i watch this. Quite entertaining on this possibly troubled Saturday.
Wish that everything's okay tomorrow. Hope i hear a good news tomorrow. Hope i can see what i'm waiting for
Friday, January 28, 2011
Missing puzzle
I CAN'T HOLD ON , seriously T.T
Maybe i'm overreacting but i'm just expressing what i feel. Because no one can hear it, or at least give an appropriate respond toward this. No one will understand how to deal with it. Here's the place where i can be my self. Without judgement, without complain, without preach.
Well, maybe some people will read it. or maybe you're reading it. Just pretend that you never read this. Don't ever ask me about what i'm talking about.
hm
Kalo di sinetron - sinetron indonesia suka ada misalnya orang jadi dokter karena motivasi dia pengen nyembuhin ibunya yang sakit kanker, misalnya. Kalo gw, lucu kali ya jadi programmer supaya bisa memprogram otak gw.
I wish i could program my brain. I could format my memory any time i want, but i also have a feature to restore it just in case someday i need it. I could make if conditional statement, making an exception for all circumstances. The most important is, i could turn it on or off or even restart it if it is too hard to process. I could force to kill the process that bugs my system. I could defrag the data on my brain so it won't be distracting one another.
But i'm not a computer. I'm only a man with a dull black box.
God, i'm tired. But please don't blame me. It hurts. It does really hurt. No one will be able to deal with it.
I'm going 22 but everything still the same, it's just everyone's changing.
I've been trying, i've been striving on it , but i guess i'm just ... i'm just tired of it.
I am tired ...
I wish i could program my brain. I could format my memory any time i want, but i also have a feature to restore it just in case someday i need it. I could make if conditional statement, making an exception for all circumstances. The most important is, i could turn it on or off or even restart it if it is too hard to process. I could force to kill the process that bugs my system. I could defrag the data on my brain so it won't be distracting one another.
But i'm not a computer. I'm only a man with a dull black box.
God, i'm tired. But please don't blame me. It hurts. It does really hurt. No one will be able to deal with it.
I'm going 22 but everything still the same, it's just everyone's changing.
I've been trying, i've been striving on it , but i guess i'm just ... i'm just tired of it.
I am tired ...
Thursday, January 27, 2011
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
There are a lot of things on my mind. I thought i'm mature enough to face this. But i guess no one is ready for a thing like this. But why is this coming when i'm in exam week and close to my birthday.
Oh i'm so sick of this. i'm tired of this.
moron
Oh i'm so sick of this. i'm tired of this.
moron
Good day, bad day, i'm okay
I have an exam tomorrow, but today have a lot of bugs which distract me from studying. I am so tired,exhausted, sleepy and there's electricity blackout. But the biggest bug today is my feeling. I'm not in a stable mood. Upside down. Damn ! before-exam-temptation.
Look, actually i was about to write a lot of things here [even a funny thing], but now i lose my mood. I hate mood swing. No, i hate the thing that causes the mood swing.
What is the best escape for this ? smoking ? [smoking doesn't give me any reliefs] drink ? [i don't drink]. The best escape for me is playing in a gray area [what the hell i'm talking about].
Aaaanyway, there's an episode in How I Met Your Mother season 4 which is really touching me. When Ted Mosby said how desperate he is to his ex-girlfriend, Stella [who left him at the altar].
Ted : "Okay, I'm gonna say something out loud that I've been doing. a pretty good job of not saying out loud lately. What you and Tony have -- what I thought for a second you and I had...
...what I know that Marshall and Lily have... -- I want that. I do. I keep waiting for it to happen and waiting for it to happen, and... I guess I'm just, um... I'm tired of waiting. And that is all I'm going to say on that subject. "
Stella : "You know, I once talked my way out of a speeding ticket?"
Ted : "really ?"
Stella : "I was heading upstate
to my parents' house doing, like, 90 on this country road, 505 and I got pulled over. So this cop gets out of his car. He kind of swaggers on over and he's, like, "Young lady, I have been waiting for you all day." So I looked up at him and I said, "I'm so sorry, Officer. I got here as fast as I could."
Ted : For real?
Stella : No. It's an old joke. i know that you're tired of waiting, and you may have to wait
a little while more, but she's on her way, Ted. And she's getting here as fast as she can."
Look, actually i was about to write a lot of things here [even a funny thing], but now i lose my mood. I hate mood swing. No, i hate the thing that causes the mood swing.
What is the best escape for this ? smoking ? [smoking doesn't give me any reliefs] drink ? [i don't drink]. The best escape for me is playing in a gray area [what the hell i'm talking about].
Aaaanyway, there's an episode in How I Met Your Mother season 4 which is really touching me. When Ted Mosby said how desperate he is to his ex-girlfriend, Stella [who left him at the altar].
Ted : "Okay, I'm gonna say something out loud that I've been doing. a pretty good job of not saying out loud lately. What you and Tony have -- what I thought for a second you and I had...
...what I know that Marshall and Lily have... -- I want that. I do. I keep waiting for it to happen and waiting for it to happen, and... I guess I'm just, um... I'm tired of waiting. And that is all I'm going to say on that subject. "
Stella : "You know, I once talked my way out of a speeding ticket?"
Ted : "really ?"
Stella : "I was heading upstate
to my parents' house doing, like, 90 on this country road, 505 and I got pulled over. So this cop gets out of his car. He kind of swaggers on over and he's, like, "Young lady, I have been waiting for you all day." So I looked up at him and I said, "I'm so sorry, Officer. I got here as fast as I could."
Ted : For real?
Stella : No. It's an old joke. i know that you're tired of waiting, and you may have to wait
a little while more, but she's on her way, Ted. And she's getting here as fast as she can."
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Saints and Sinners
Is there really good person on earth ?
Because based on my experiences, all good people that i know turned out to be evil in the end.
All saints are also sinners. They are a lot alike.
There's only a thin line between black and blue.
where do i stand ? whom should i believe ? what should i choose ?
Those questions always have multiple answers.
When something is too good to be true, it's also too good to let go.
So ... coffee or tea ? they're just the same, containing caffeine.
Black or blue ?
My GPS tell me that i'm in a gray area
Because based on my experiences, all good people that i know turned out to be evil in the end.
All saints are also sinners. They are a lot alike.
There's only a thin line between black and blue.
where do i stand ? whom should i believe ? what should i choose ?
Those questions always have multiple answers.
When something is too good to be true, it's also too good to let go.
So ... coffee or tea ? they're just the same, containing caffeine.
Black or blue ?
My GPS tell me that i'm in a gray area
No more surprise please
God, i can't handle the truth.
I know that i'm kinda stalker, social climber, blackmailer, secret agent , mmmh anything about breaking people's privacy or anything related to secret job. I should've been prepared for any truth that i will find.
But when the truth comes to me without me finding, that's shocking. And i just can't handle it.
Moreover if the truth is something that i have to keep by myself. Oh, it is contradicting the value of my profession [secret agent].
There's a saying "thought the truth hurts.but lie is worse "
no no no , sometimes to hide the truth is better than to disclose it.
But i promise, from now on, i should be better at stalking or any other secret so i can predict any truths which are coming
I know that i'm kinda stalker, social climber, blackmailer, secret agent , mmmh anything about breaking people's privacy or anything related to secret job. I should've been prepared for any truth that i will find.
But when the truth comes to me without me finding, that's shocking. And i just can't handle it.
Moreover if the truth is something that i have to keep by myself. Oh, it is contradicting the value of my profession [secret agent].
There's a saying "thought the truth hurts.but lie is worse "
no no no , sometimes to hide the truth is better than to disclose it.
But i promise, from now on, i should be better at stalking or any other secret so i can predict any truths which are coming
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Stage Fever
For God's sake, that was a torture.
Wait, before i go further with the torture, i will tell you what the previous story.
When i was a 6th grader, there were songs like Graduation from Vitamin C and Kisah Klasik Untuk Masa Depan by Sheila on 7. Both are my fave songs and i really want to sing that song in a graduation. Several days ago, my friends asked me to sing that two songs for my senior's graduation. Yay ! dream comes true. But the problem is i can't sing, and i've never sung in front of public. So we decided that it will be a vocal group, we had 4 persons. But apparently the other members didn't know at all about the song. The verse part of the song quite hard because it's like a rap. It takes me 1 day to train them to remember the song [their part is only 4 lines].
And the day came. I felt that it won't work. The MC called us to the stage. We only had 2 mics [and i dunno why my friend didn't have any initiative to find another one]. So, i was the one who sing the first part. Hell yeah, i was nervous but it's okay. My part was done, it's my friend's turn now. But hey ... why there's no sound. I look at my friend and ... oh my God he trembled. His face was blushing, sweaty. HE FORGOT THE LYRICS hahaha. In stead of backing up his part, i was having a mixed feeling between annoyed, ashamed, but i wanna laugh out loud seeing my friend like that. So i just let him enjoy the torture hahaha.
The second song. The first part should be sung by him [the one who forgot the lyrics] and i do the second part. The guitarist played the intro. Over and over again ... but my friend didn't sing. I took a look at him. Again, he trembled [HAHAHAHAHAHA], the guitarist was quite annoyed and shout at him
"ayo ... ayo ... ayo masuk" while he's playing the intro over and over again. And i wanna laugh again and let him enjoy the torture but ... i think i should handle it. I grabbed the mic from him and sang his part. Wait, we had another member. His part is after me. But ... he took the wrong tempo. Damn.
They ruined my childhood imagination. My 10 years of waiting for singing this song just ended with torture and humiliation like this. ckckckck but, hahaha i still can't stop laughing at mr-trembled-because-he-forgot-the-lyrics hhahaha LOL
Wait, before i go further with the torture, i will tell you what the previous story.
When i was a 6th grader, there were songs like Graduation from Vitamin C and Kisah Klasik Untuk Masa Depan by Sheila on 7. Both are my fave songs and i really want to sing that song in a graduation. Several days ago, my friends asked me to sing that two songs for my senior's graduation. Yay ! dream comes true. But the problem is i can't sing, and i've never sung in front of public. So we decided that it will be a vocal group, we had 4 persons. But apparently the other members didn't know at all about the song. The verse part of the song quite hard because it's like a rap. It takes me 1 day to train them to remember the song [their part is only 4 lines].
And the day came. I felt that it won't work. The MC called us to the stage. We only had 2 mics [and i dunno why my friend didn't have any initiative to find another one]. So, i was the one who sing the first part. Hell yeah, i was nervous but it's okay. My part was done, it's my friend's turn now. But hey ... why there's no sound. I look at my friend and ... oh my God he trembled. His face was blushing, sweaty. HE FORGOT THE LYRICS hahaha. In stead of backing up his part, i was having a mixed feeling between annoyed, ashamed, but i wanna laugh out loud seeing my friend like that. So i just let him enjoy the torture hahaha.
The second song. The first part should be sung by him [the one who forgot the lyrics] and i do the second part. The guitarist played the intro. Over and over again ... but my friend didn't sing. I took a look at him. Again, he trembled [HAHAHAHAHAHA], the guitarist was quite annoyed and shout at him
"ayo ... ayo ... ayo masuk" while he's playing the intro over and over again. And i wanna laugh again and let him enjoy the torture but ... i think i should handle it. I grabbed the mic from him and sang his part. Wait, we had another member. His part is after me. But ... he took the wrong tempo. Damn.
They ruined my childhood imagination. My 10 years of waiting for singing this song just ended with torture and humiliation like this. ckckckck but, hahaha i still can't stop laughing at mr-trembled-because-he-forgot-the-lyrics hhahaha LOL
Monday, January 24, 2011
Insomnia
Sumpah ini lagu enak banget, tapi yang versi Sabrina. Insomnia
I never thought that I'd fall in love, love, love, love
But it grew from a simple crush, crush, crush, crush
Being without you girl, I was all messed up, up, up, up
When you walked out, said that you'd had enough-nough-nough-nough
Been a fool, girl I know
Didn't expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time, you'll change your mind
Now looking back i wish i could rewind
Because i can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more
Oh i stay up til you're next to me
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Remember telling my boys that I'd never fall in love, love, love, love
You used to think I'd never find a girl I could trust, trust, trust, trust
And then you walked into my life and it was all about us, us, us, us
But now I'm sitting here thinking I messed the whole thing up, up, up, up
Been a fool (fool), girl I know (know)
Didn't expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time (time), you'll change your mind (mind)
Now looking back i wish i could rewind
Because i can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)
Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)
Til this house feels like it did before (Because it)
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah (Ah), Feels like insomnia ah ah
Ah, i just can't go to sleep
Cause it feels like I've fallen for you
It's getting way too deep
And i know that it's love because
I can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)
Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like
I never thought that I'd fall in love, love, love, love
But it grew from a simple crush, crush, crush, crush
Being without you girl, I was all messed up, up, up, up
When you walked out, said that you'd had enough-nough-nough-nough
Been a fool, girl I know
Didn't expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time, you'll change your mind
Now looking back i wish i could rewind
Because i can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more
Oh i stay up til you're next to me
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Remember telling my boys that I'd never fall in love, love, love, love
You used to think I'd never find a girl I could trust, trust, trust, trust
And then you walked into my life and it was all about us, us, us, us
But now I'm sitting here thinking I messed the whole thing up, up, up, up
Been a fool (fool), girl I know (know)
Didn't expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time (time), you'll change your mind (mind)
Now looking back i wish i could rewind
Because i can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)
Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)
Til this house feels like it did before (Because it)
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah (Ah), Feels like insomnia ah ah
Ah, i just can't go to sleep
Cause it feels like I've fallen for you
It's getting way too deep
And i know that it's love because
I can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)
Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like
Saturday, January 22, 2011
The importance of being idle
I don't know if it is even important to be idle. I have no idea. The reason i give the title to this post is i'm currently idle. I've done almost all my assignments. My side job has been done. I've been taken off almost sticky notes on my wall because it has been done. But i left 2 sticky notes there in order to make me feel that i still have a thing to do, because i don't want to have nothing to do especially on Saturday night. It's gonna be a long ... long and windy night [why did i say windy ? ]. I used to have a date with my assignments. But now, it's over. We're better off separated.
So because i don't know what to do this morning, and my class would have just started 2.5 hours from now so i browsed on Youtube. I typed "idle" in a keyword text field trying to find some people who's been in idleness and upload their inspiring video about being idle. And oh my God, the first result really impressed me.
Now i don't have to be affraid of being idle because it is important.
Aaaanyway. I'm so proud of myself [okay maybe you think that i'm a narcist person. In recent posts i said that i'm awesome. and now i'm so proud of myself ] because this recent weeks i've been so busy. I used to be a great procrastinator. But since this month i've been a diligent student who finishes his assignment and side job before the deadline. I even studied voluntarily for final exam preparation. I feel like a real student now. I'm no longer a slave of procrastination. Now i'm a deadline racer.
Isn't that awesome ? i'm so proud of myself. I should win a noble.
[Okay, my narcissism has gone too far]
So because i don't know what to do this morning, and my class would have just started 2.5 hours from now so i browsed on Youtube. I typed "idle" in a keyword text field trying to find some people who's been in idleness and upload their inspiring video about being idle. And oh my God, the first result really impressed me.
Now i don't have to be affraid of being idle because it is important.
Aaaanyway. I'm so proud of myself [okay maybe you think that i'm a narcist person. In recent posts i said that i'm awesome. and now i'm so proud of myself ] because this recent weeks i've been so busy. I used to be a great procrastinator. But since this month i've been a diligent student who finishes his assignment and side job before the deadline. I even studied voluntarily for final exam preparation. I feel like a real student now. I'm no longer a slave of procrastination. Now i'm a deadline racer.
Isn't that awesome ? i'm so proud of myself. I should win a noble.
[Okay, my narcissism has gone too far]
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Moving on
Ternyata buat moving on itu nggak gampang ya. Gampang banget ketika kita ngasih advise ke orang tentang how to forget ourselves for a failure and moving on. But in fact, waktu ngalamin sendiri itu emang susah. I am tough, yes. I am big-hearted, yes. I am down, yes. I can't pretend that i'm down.
But at least i know now how to answer how-do-u-deal-with-stress question. I will take my time, contemplating the thing that blew me off. Keep repeating that kinda scene like a film in my head. Quoting the same statement over and over again to satisfy my craving of logical reason of my failure, making my own speculation that can make me comfy or even more make me down.
I know the formula of fate, pray, and stuffs but those things aren't working at the bottom of everything. Well i know that everything can be subjective. This is how society works, hypocrite. They want us to tell the truth but actually they don't expect to hear that.
Ah stop it, i can't be mellow, i have to be awesome.
Time heals, movies heal.
Thank's God for the awesome playlists tucked on my winamp.
Bruno Mars who says that "never say you can't ..."
Katy Perry who says that i'm a fireworks
"do you know there's still a chance for you 'cause there's a sparks in you .."
"you don't have to feel like a waste of space, you're original cannot be replace."
"maybe you're reason why all the doors all closed, so you could open one that leads you to the perfect road"
hahaha ...
anyway, i used a lot of 'awesome' recently ..
But at least i know now how to answer how-do-u-deal-with-stress question. I will take my time, contemplating the thing that blew me off. Keep repeating that kinda scene like a film in my head. Quoting the same statement over and over again to satisfy my craving of logical reason of my failure, making my own speculation that can make me comfy or even more make me down.
I know the formula of fate, pray, and stuffs but those things aren't working at the bottom of everything. Well i know that everything can be subjective. This is how society works, hypocrite. They want us to tell the truth but actually they don't expect to hear that.
Ah stop it, i can't be mellow, i have to be awesome.
Time heals, movies heal.
Thank's God for the awesome playlists tucked on my winamp.
Bruno Mars who says that "never say you can't ..."
Katy Perry who says that i'm a fireworks
"do you know there's still a chance for you 'cause there's a sparks in you .."
"you don't have to feel like a waste of space, you're original cannot be replace."
"maybe you're reason why all the doors all closed, so you could open one that leads you to the perfect road"
hahaha ...
anyway, i used a lot of 'awesome' recently ..
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
MACH Microsoft group assesment
Yesterday i skipped my class [again] because i had to go to Microsoft Indonesia office for having a group assessment regarding selection for internship program in Singapore. Well this is a program for undergraduate students to have an internship during summer vacation in Singapore. It has three tracks marketing, sales, services, technicals. None of them are my passion but whatsoever they provide monthly salary, money, trips, are my passion anyway. So i registered myself to Binus Career and i had in interview with them then i proceeded to the big 50 candidates.
This morning those 50 candidates were divided into 4 groups. For the first session we were given a microsoft product and a client [simulation] we had to make a marketing strategy for that product and make sales presentation for the client. The discussion was very messy. we had 13 people on a round table. We didn't know each other but we had to prepare the presentation. I had no idea about marketing, but whatsoever, i had to be active in this discussion so i took my turn to talk and contribute my ideas. I offered myself to do the presentation, because we had 13 people but we only had 3 minutes to do presentation. If i didn't offer myself to do that, i didn't think i could pass this phase because there's no more chance to show up. And finally, i got into the big 16.
In the second phase, the top 16 people were divided into two groups again. We were given a case about sinking lifeboat survival. We had to choose 6 out of 12 people to be saved from a sinking lifeboat. We had to defend our reasons why we choose them and another team should attack us, and the other way around. What i learn from this session is, in this kind of selection phase is .... don't be naive! we've got no friends there. All we've got is frenemies. The atmosphere has to be friendly but they're our enemy as well. So we gotta find a way how to kick them as an enemy but still treat them as friends so no one will back stab us. Grab as many chance as you get to talk. Because everyone wants to talk. And it is very easy to be ignored so not only talk but we also have to grab the attention. Control the condition. Thanks God i did it well. I grabbed a lot of chances to talk, to attack the opponent team. And i could grab their attention,make them stop talking and listening when i was talking. I made several jokes that worked.
Still in the second phase, the next exercise was one minute speech. We had to promote ourselves in 1 minute. It should not be a hard part for me. I've dealt with it a lot of times. but still, in terms of selection, nerves are still all around. But i did it good too. Everyone is smiling positively, and they laugh at my jokes too [my jokes worked so well there]. Thanks God , again i got into big 9.
So, today the big 9 were invited again to Microsoft's office for individual interview. I thought it was just individual interviews. Apparently it was individual INTERVIEWS. Each of us had 4 interviews with different people in a key position back to back. That was so tiring. Well, in the first interview i was still excited until the third interview i was so sick of answering the question like "tell me about yourself" , "why microsoft should choose you", "why are u different from the other candidates ?" i preferred to repeat the same answer for the same question. Beside that i was given a case to make advertising strategy for Windows 7 advertisement on buses around Jakarta. Then i had to do a simulation of technical sales presentation to sell an Internet Explorer. In fact, i hate Internet Explorer. But i did it good until the forth interview. The interviewer is the director, he's indian, a lil bit annoying and not friendly. And i was kinda tired and boring of interview. So when i entered the room it was like, okay, it would be another why-should-microsoft-choose-you question. But suddenly i feel like i had no mood for interview, and the chemistry that he built is bad, and suddenly i feel like losing my english skill. I didn't speak fluently. I didn't do it well. Whatsoever i was so tired.
After we'd been through all the intervews, the organizer told me that they will choose the top 6. And these top 6 people would have an interview with President Director.
We waited for the decision.
I was called to one room. How's the result ?
Well i will just quote his statements.
"You are outstanding. But you don't close over the other. Ada kan biasanya yang bagus tapi nutupin yang lain gitu. Nah lo nggak. Lo bisa ada di sudut ruangan, di tengah, dimana - mana and you still get the spotlight tp juga tetep ngasih kesempatan buat yang lain. it would be a very pleasant to have you in team. That's why it's hard for us to let you go. And we have to admit, everyone admits that you are unique, you are different in terms of personality, the way you think, you're different from the other. But that what makes us think that you will be good as a specialist, not generalist. Sayang banget kalo lo kerja di kayak beginian. So that's why we decide not to pass you to the next level. We won't let the top 6 go. We will keep contact. You will still have oppoturnity to work with us, no promise, but you still have oppoturnity.We'll keep u warm. But, MACH won't be your first step to Microsoft."
Okay ... Take it all as a compliment.
But ... just don't mix compliment and rejection.
Compliment can be very good to hear, rejection can be so bad to hear.
But combination of both will just make it even more heartbreaking news.
But whatever,
for whatever good or bad. I've done great. I've made it through the top 50. Doing marketing presentation that i've never done before. Got into top 16, top 9 , being interviewed by people in the key position. Got into top 6.
And it's Microsoft btw, and also tough selection.
i'm awesome
This morning those 50 candidates were divided into 4 groups. For the first session we were given a microsoft product and a client [simulation] we had to make a marketing strategy for that product and make sales presentation for the client. The discussion was very messy. we had 13 people on a round table. We didn't know each other but we had to prepare the presentation. I had no idea about marketing, but whatsoever, i had to be active in this discussion so i took my turn to talk and contribute my ideas. I offered myself to do the presentation, because we had 13 people but we only had 3 minutes to do presentation. If i didn't offer myself to do that, i didn't think i could pass this phase because there's no more chance to show up. And finally, i got into the big 16.
In the second phase, the top 16 people were divided into two groups again. We were given a case about sinking lifeboat survival. We had to choose 6 out of 12 people to be saved from a sinking lifeboat. We had to defend our reasons why we choose them and another team should attack us, and the other way around. What i learn from this session is, in this kind of selection phase is .... don't be naive! we've got no friends there. All we've got is frenemies. The atmosphere has to be friendly but they're our enemy as well. So we gotta find a way how to kick them as an enemy but still treat them as friends so no one will back stab us. Grab as many chance as you get to talk. Because everyone wants to talk. And it is very easy to be ignored so not only talk but we also have to grab the attention. Control the condition. Thanks God i did it well. I grabbed a lot of chances to talk, to attack the opponent team. And i could grab their attention,make them stop talking and listening when i was talking. I made several jokes that worked.
Still in the second phase, the next exercise was one minute speech. We had to promote ourselves in 1 minute. It should not be a hard part for me. I've dealt with it a lot of times. but still, in terms of selection, nerves are still all around. But i did it good too. Everyone is smiling positively, and they laugh at my jokes too [my jokes worked so well there]. Thanks God , again i got into big 9.
So, today the big 9 were invited again to Microsoft's office for individual interview. I thought it was just individual interviews. Apparently it was individual INTERVIEWS. Each of us had 4 interviews with different people in a key position back to back. That was so tiring. Well, in the first interview i was still excited until the third interview i was so sick of answering the question like "tell me about yourself" , "why microsoft should choose you", "why are u different from the other candidates ?" i preferred to repeat the same answer for the same question. Beside that i was given a case to make advertising strategy for Windows 7 advertisement on buses around Jakarta. Then i had to do a simulation of technical sales presentation to sell an Internet Explorer. In fact, i hate Internet Explorer. But i did it good until the forth interview. The interviewer is the director, he's indian, a lil bit annoying and not friendly. And i was kinda tired and boring of interview. So when i entered the room it was like, okay, it would be another why-should-microsoft-choose-you question. But suddenly i feel like i had no mood for interview, and the chemistry that he built is bad, and suddenly i feel like losing my english skill. I didn't speak fluently. I didn't do it well. Whatsoever i was so tired.
After we'd been through all the intervews, the organizer told me that they will choose the top 6. And these top 6 people would have an interview with President Director.
We waited for the decision.
I was called to one room. How's the result ?
Well i will just quote his statements.
"You are outstanding. But you don't close over the other. Ada kan biasanya yang bagus tapi nutupin yang lain gitu. Nah lo nggak. Lo bisa ada di sudut ruangan, di tengah, dimana - mana and you still get the spotlight tp juga tetep ngasih kesempatan buat yang lain. it would be a very pleasant to have you in team. That's why it's hard for us to let you go. And we have to admit, everyone admits that you are unique, you are different in terms of personality, the way you think, you're different from the other. But that what makes us think that you will be good as a specialist, not generalist. Sayang banget kalo lo kerja di kayak beginian. So that's why we decide not to pass you to the next level. We won't let the top 6 go. We will keep contact. You will still have oppoturnity to work with us, no promise, but you still have oppoturnity.We'll keep u warm. But, MACH won't be your first step to Microsoft."
Okay ... Take it all as a compliment.
But ... just don't mix compliment and rejection.
Compliment can be very good to hear, rejection can be so bad to hear.
But combination of both will just make it even more heartbreaking news.
But whatever,
for whatever good or bad. I've done great. I've made it through the top 50. Doing marketing presentation that i've never done before. Got into top 16, top 9 , being interviewed by people in the key position. Got into top 6.
And it's Microsoft btw, and also tough selection.
i'm awesome
Monday, January 17, 2011
Teenage dream
It's been a week i have a weird and sleep pattern. I usually woken up at 3 a.m for a dream and sleep again for another dream. And it's been 5 days a row i dream about my old friends. Friends from my junior high school, from senior high school, my minions from senior high school, and just now i dreamed about my friends from BNEC.
What's going on ? do i miss them ?
What's going on ? do i miss them ?
Friday, January 14, 2011
Tell me how to be an ignorant !
Along my academic career, group assignments always be an obstacle. It [the process] is never easy. The fact that i always being stressed by the group assignments. Not because it is so hard to do, but because behavior of my teammates always stress me out. So that's why every time the lectures announce that there will be group assignments moreover it's like a wooden stake stab my heart and rips it out. [well, exaggerating].
I might be a procrastinator. Even a great procrastinator. But i'm not an ignorant. I always remember it if i have a responsibility, it's just the matter of time until i find my mood to do that thing. And my teammates are ignorants. I believe that ignorants are worse than procrastinator [but maybe less stressful because you pretend that there's no responsibility to be done]. I don't know why i always get a great combo where all the team members are ignorant. No one seems eager to move , to help me distributing the task, not even help me to arrange the schedule. All they do is just put they head on the sands and pretend that there's no assignments.
So, it's been a long time i've been a nanny for those irresponsible kids. I have to remind them that they have assignments and the deadline is getting closer, and if they don't do it then they will lose the score.
"Hey, jadi tugas kita gimana ? deadline nya bentar lagi loh"
[actually what my heart wants to say is "hey dumbass! how can u be such an ignorant ? do u know that u're risking my score ?]
And usually , they innocently answer like this
"Oh iya, gimana ya ?"
[SEE ? there's no solvency at all in their answer. They only repeating my statement and give a slight non-creative-modification]
In the end, again and again i will be the one who makes an arrangement. I text them all to come on the next day. And guess what ? At the day when we're supposed to meet, i come on time. [note it, i rarely come on time]. I wait for 5 minutes, 10, 15, 25 , and ....40 minutes but there's no one coming. And when i text them all
"Pada dmn sih ?"
[No one replies. They really set me up. they really use me. what are they ? Satan in a Sunday red hat ?]
Actually some of them reply like ...
"Gw masih OTW nih"
[and i know, when he's texting he's still in his boarding house. But, i buy it]
or
"Gw baru selesai mandi nih, bentar lagi jalan"
[i appreciate her/his honesty, but ... WHY IN THIS WORLD YOU TAKE A BATH AT THE TIME LIKE THIS WHEN YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE HERE 1 HOUR AGO]
once, i got a really annoying reply that i will never forget for the rest of my life.
"oh ? sekarang ada belajar kelompok yah ? maaf yah gw lupa. gw masih di rumah"
["maaf yah" ? he didn't even say that he would reach the place immediately. If i were Evelyn Salt, i would go directly to his house and make my own bazooka and blow his house]
There are a lot of annoying things to talk when it comes to group assignments. And now i'm currently losing my mind. I'm planning a revenge, gaining my resentment. I will walk out the class on the presentation day. I'm no longer worry about my score, i just want them to be ....
suffering ...
[although i know they won't feel anything]
So... can you tell me how to be an ignorant ?
Because maybe to solve those ignorants problem, i need a reversed psychology.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Tanpa Bintang
Semenjak kost, interaksi sosial semakin terbatas. Paling - paling cuma lewat facebook baja. Makanya ketika ada rumor facebook mau shutdown, buat gw itu terdengar lebih mencemaskan daripada rumor kiamat 2012.
Aktifitas banyak dilakukan di kamar, sendirian. Sama tetangga pun gw males sosialisasi. Paling - paling kamar rame kalo ada cewe - cewe datang buat minta belajar [baca : minta dikerjain tugas] , males banget sih tapi berhubung belakangan ini mereka mulai menggunakan trik baru [menyogok dengan makanan setiap datang] gw jadi tidak kuasa untukk menolak.
Tapi lama - lama bosen juga di kamar sendirian, apalagi ketika dunia maya lagi sepi. Akhirnya, iseng - iseng download lagu ini. Sebenernya udah lama tau lagu ini tapi males banget buat download tapi waktu denger di TV koq liriknya lucu juga ya, pas gitu. Akhirnya gw download sebuah lagu dari desperate-ex-husband dan anak terlantar yang depresi karena ditinggal ibu nya yang sibuk selingkuh sama laki yang lebih tajir [you know who]
Liriknya kayak begini, lucu deh desperate abis dan mirip sama gw [kali].
Sepi ini takkan membunuh kita
karena kita selalu bersama
bersamanya kita harus bahagia
melawan semua aral yang ada
aku dan kamu [laptop gw]
selalu bersama
habiskan malam walau tanpa bintang
aku dan kamu [laptop gw]
saling berpelukkan
membunuh malam hingga pagi menjelang
P.S : semua kata 'kamu' diatas me-refer ke laptop gw.
So pathetic but true, sepi ini takkan membunuh gw selama ada laptop ini. Selalu bersama , membunuh malam hingga pagi menjelang, nonton, chatting, selamanya .... selamanya ...
love you, my beloved laptop.
OH MY GOD ! AM I DRUNK ???
Aktifitas banyak dilakukan di kamar, sendirian. Sama tetangga pun gw males sosialisasi. Paling - paling kamar rame kalo ada cewe - cewe datang buat minta belajar [baca : minta dikerjain tugas] , males banget sih tapi berhubung belakangan ini mereka mulai menggunakan trik baru [menyogok dengan makanan setiap datang] gw jadi tidak kuasa untukk menolak.
Tapi lama - lama bosen juga di kamar sendirian, apalagi ketika dunia maya lagi sepi. Akhirnya, iseng - iseng download lagu ini. Sebenernya udah lama tau lagu ini tapi males banget buat download tapi waktu denger di TV koq liriknya lucu juga ya, pas gitu. Akhirnya gw download sebuah lagu dari desperate-ex-husband dan anak terlantar yang depresi karena ditinggal ibu nya yang sibuk selingkuh sama laki yang lebih tajir [you know who]
Liriknya kayak begini, lucu deh desperate abis dan mirip sama gw [kali].
Sepi ini takkan membunuh kita
karena kita selalu bersama
bersamanya kita harus bahagia
melawan semua aral yang ada
aku dan kamu [laptop gw]
selalu bersama
habiskan malam walau tanpa bintang
aku dan kamu [laptop gw]
saling berpelukkan
membunuh malam hingga pagi menjelang
P.S : semua kata 'kamu' diatas me-refer ke laptop gw.
So pathetic but true, sepi ini takkan membunuh gw selama ada laptop ini. Selalu bersama , membunuh malam hingga pagi menjelang, nonton, chatting, selamanya .... selamanya ...
love you, my beloved laptop.
OH MY GOD ! AM I DRUNK ???
Monday, January 10, 2011
Confession of a brokenheart
It's easy to pretend that everything was okay when it's actually not. But in fact, it will never be okay. I can lay my head on sands and pretend that there's no problem. But apparently the sands suck my joy, wind blows the problem.
Today, i was so nervous because i had a quiz for my lab subject. It was never hard for me, but today's different. It's like life and death matter to me. But somehow i had prepared myself yesterday.
The room was so cold, it pumped up my nerves. I took my seat confidently. When i was about to turn on my computer, my friend shouted
"Fajar ! lo kan ga boleh ikut .#$@$ " , suaranya ga jelas karena jarak kita sekitar 3 komputer.
"Apa ?"
"Lo kan ga boleh ikut UAP!"
"HAH ? gw ?"
"Iya, itu ada pengumuman nya di depan ruangan."
"Masa sih ? tapi kan ini quiz, bukan UAP", i still couldn't believe it.
I continued doing my quiz, i did it so well. It's very easy 'coz i'm well prepared. Right after i finished my work, i checked the announcement board. and YES ! I'm not eligible to join lab final exam. DAMN ! nightmare is coming true. It's a heartbreaking announcement because it means that i'm close-to-impossible to get A for this subject.
But i guess i'm a victim of the unfairness. My absent has exceeded its limit. Yes, i didn't attend the lab twice and the limit is 3. But apparently, once i ever been late and it is counted as absent. While the other students on the other days sometimes they are forgiven even though they're late and still considered as present. I hate this regulation. So lame and discriminative. And intolerant.
I know that i have to strive harder on the other subject so my GPA won't be jeopardized. There will always be a disgrace in my academic history. And it will be ridiculous if everytime i have job interview or in my application letter i enclose additional information about my GPA "my GPA is not that high because on the 5th semester i wasn't allowed to join lab final exam. it was because my absent has exceeded its limit but actually not"
oh come on !
But whatever, i won't give it up to the poor thing. I will try my best for the other subjects.
When one door is closed there will be another door open. right ?
But if there's no door open at all. Just wait, maybe someday it will open.
But if it never opens. Well just , just go... poor you!
Today, i was so nervous because i had a quiz for my lab subject. It was never hard for me, but today's different. It's like life and death matter to me. But somehow i had prepared myself yesterday.
The room was so cold, it pumped up my nerves. I took my seat confidently. When i was about to turn on my computer, my friend shouted
"Fajar ! lo kan ga boleh ikut .#$@$ " , suaranya ga jelas karena jarak kita sekitar 3 komputer.
"Apa ?"
"Lo kan ga boleh ikut UAP!"
"HAH ? gw ?"
"Iya, itu ada pengumuman nya di depan ruangan."
"Masa sih ? tapi kan ini quiz, bukan UAP", i still couldn't believe it.
I continued doing my quiz, i did it so well. It's very easy 'coz i'm well prepared. Right after i finished my work, i checked the announcement board. and YES ! I'm not eligible to join lab final exam. DAMN ! nightmare is coming true. It's a heartbreaking announcement because it means that i'm close-to-impossible to get A for this subject.
But i guess i'm a victim of the unfairness. My absent has exceeded its limit. Yes, i didn't attend the lab twice and the limit is 3. But apparently, once i ever been late and it is counted as absent. While the other students on the other days sometimes they are forgiven even though they're late and still considered as present. I hate this regulation. So lame and discriminative. And intolerant.
I know that i have to strive harder on the other subject so my GPA won't be jeopardized. There will always be a disgrace in my academic history. And it will be ridiculous if everytime i have job interview or in my application letter i enclose additional information about my GPA "my GPA is not that high because on the 5th semester i wasn't allowed to join lab final exam. it was because my absent has exceeded its limit but actually not"
oh come on !
But whatever, i won't give it up to the poor thing. I will try my best for the other subjects.
When one door is closed there will be another door open. right ?
But if there's no door open at all. Just wait, maybe someday it will open.
But if it never opens. Well just , just go... poor you!
Tuesday, January 04, 2011
I thought we were friends
Apparently, 2 years living together didn't create any bond. We've been through a lot of things together but we're still stranger to each other. I'm talking about my ex-house mates. We decided to get separated 5 months ago but we still rent rooms at the same boarding house. There are only limited social interactions between us. We only talk to each other when it is needed. Until several days ago, my neighbor said ...
"Eh ... si T kan pindah ..."
'oh ya ?' kata gw pura - pura nggak tau. Padahal udah tau dari tetangga yang lain, bukan orangnya.
"Emang nggak pamit ?"
'NGGAK'
Well, that's not really bad because afterward my friend and i had a chat on facebook and finally we talked about his moving. But still, what is so hard to say goodbye or to inform me about his moving to an old friend ?
The next days ...it is today actually. My neighbor .. [the same neighbor above, i don't know why she always get the first hearing] said ...
"Heh, si M udah ga di sini ya ?"
'HAH ?!' kali ini beneran kagetnya karena beneran nggak tau sama sekali.
"iya, dia minta satu hari lagi buat pindah. katanya pindah ke slipi. ke tempat sodaranya "
'HAH ?!' as long as i know, he doesn't have any relatives there. Besides .....
"emang nggak bilang ?"
'NGGAK' inilah yang paling gw sebel. Menjawab pertanyaan ini.
It's not a big deal though and also none of my business. But the thing is i have considered them as my second family ? or at least close friends. Isn't it impolite if you're leaving without telling your friend first ?
Well okay, maybe i'm not a friend to them.
That's okay, now i know how it works.
"Eh ... si T kan pindah ..."
'oh ya ?' kata gw pura - pura nggak tau. Padahal udah tau dari tetangga yang lain, bukan orangnya.
"Emang nggak pamit ?"
'NGGAK'
Well, that's not really bad because afterward my friend and i had a chat on facebook and finally we talked about his moving. But still, what is so hard to say goodbye or to inform me about his moving to an old friend ?
The next days ...it is today actually. My neighbor .. [the same neighbor above, i don't know why she always get the first hearing] said ...
"Heh, si M udah ga di sini ya ?"
'HAH ?!' kali ini beneran kagetnya karena beneran nggak tau sama sekali.
"iya, dia minta satu hari lagi buat pindah. katanya pindah ke slipi. ke tempat sodaranya "
'HAH ?!' as long as i know, he doesn't have any relatives there. Besides .....
"emang nggak bilang ?"
'NGGAK' inilah yang paling gw sebel. Menjawab pertanyaan ini.
It's not a big deal though and also none of my business. But the thing is i have considered them as my second family ? or at least close friends. Isn't it impolite if you're leaving without telling your friend first ?
Well okay, maybe i'm not a friend to them.
That's okay, now i know how it works.
Sunday, January 02, 2011
Criticize
I'm really up to criticism. But i don't like when people criticize me but they actually do the same mistake.
So, one day [actually today] i had a chat with someone. And he criticized my english. Yeah, i know that my english is not perfect but let's see what's the reason behind the criticism ...
Here i copy the conversation ..
culprit : did you know?
me : what ?
04:06 culprit : your english is not perfect, much use of the word that does not comply with the tenses [i tried hard to accept this criticism wisely]
04:07 me : well, whatsoever. i'm not joining a toefl anyway [but still, self-defense is needed]
04:08 culprit : you must write like this : well, whatever. i'm not joining a toefl anyway
[Ok, judges ... can u find the difference between the 2 sentences ? ... oh wait. whatever and whatsoever]
04:09 me : tell me what's the difference ? it was only whatsoever and whatever. And btw grammar is not rigid
me : mostly in verbal conversation
me : unless , u're filling a writing session in TOEFL test [if it is not obvious. i'll tell you it is a joke]
04:10 culprit : no no no
04:11 culprit : i'm not filling a writing session in TOEFL test, [and who on earth says so]
culprit : but i can
me : yeah i mean. it's informal conversation
me : i'm not writing a formal letters either
culprit : ok
04:12 culprit : i'm understand [BINGO !!!!]
culprit : can we use Indonesian again?
me : and now, u're the one who makes a mistake
me : it should be "i understand"
04:13 culprit : oops
culprit : i'm sorry [LOOOOOOOOOOL]
me : haha
me : no worries
me : well, nobody's perfect though
culprit : hey
04:14 culprit : but somebody can be perfect
me : yeah, in a perfect world [actually i wanna say. Yeah, but it's obviously not u]
So, one day [actually today] i had a chat with someone. And he criticized my english. Yeah, i know that my english is not perfect but let's see what's the reason behind the criticism ...
Here i copy the conversation ..
culprit : did you know?
me : what ?
04:06 culprit : your english is not perfect, much use of the word that does not comply with the tenses [i tried hard to accept this criticism wisely]
04:07 me : well, whatsoever. i'm not joining a toefl anyway [but still, self-defense is needed]
04:08 culprit : you must write like this : well, whatever. i'm not joining a toefl anyway
[Ok, judges ... can u find the difference between the 2 sentences ? ... oh wait. whatever and whatsoever]
04:09 me : tell me what's the difference ? it was only whatsoever and whatever. And btw grammar is not rigid
me : mostly in verbal conversation
me : unless , u're filling a writing session in TOEFL test [if it is not obvious. i'll tell you it is a joke]
04:10 culprit : no no no
04:11 culprit : i'm not filling a writing session in TOEFL test, [and who on earth says so]
culprit : but i can
me : yeah i mean. it's informal conversation
me : i'm not writing a formal letters either
culprit : ok
04:12 culprit : i'm understand [BINGO !!!!]
culprit : can we use Indonesian again?
me : and now, u're the one who makes a mistake
me : it should be "i understand"
04:13 culprit : oops
culprit : i'm sorry [LOOOOOOOOOOL]
me : haha
me : no worries
me : well, nobody's perfect though
culprit : hey
04:14 culprit : but somebody can be perfect
me : yeah, in a perfect world [actually i wanna say. Yeah, but it's obviously not u]
Saturday, January 01, 2011
Firework
The title of the first post on January 1st should be "new year" or "happy new year" or "New year's resolution". Firework sounds so last night. But I think Firework from Katy Perry is one of good song to be a new year's eve theme song. I've been addicted to this song since several weeks ago. I'm not the type who celebrates new year though. Because it doesn't bring any changes to me, beside it makes me realize that i'm getting older and we're closer to the mortality. So there will be no new year's resolution for today because i might forget it one month later.
But i prefer to make a wish. It sounds better, isn't it ? Because it seems like a new day so it will boost our spirits to start a new one and leave an old one behind.
I've done a lot of stupid mistakes in 2010. From a simple one until the life-threatening one. My first wish, well it's impossible if i wish that i won't face any troubles in 2011. Life is a problem in the very first place. Life won't be that fun when all you can do is fun. So i wish that i could learn from past mistakes in order not to do the same mistake over and over again.
Second wish, i pray for it everyday. I wish that i can join lab-final-exam because some people said that i'm not allowed. But this exam is very important for my GPA. It's 6 SKS. If i can't join it then it will affect my GPA significantly. But i believe in miracles and God's work. He can make something impossible becomes possible. God Almighty. Please answer my pray.
The last wish.
2010 is also about lost. Speaking of wealth or property, that will be uncountable lost. But that's not my focus. I'm talking about losing a friend, friends, best friends, even bestest friends. Yeah, i lost them all. Not all but almost all. But i realize that people come and go in our lives. A sweet hello requires a bitter goodbye in the end. So i wish that i will get substitutes for the lost ones. And be prepared for another lost.
That's all. After all, the day remains the same.
But i prefer to make a wish. It sounds better, isn't it ? Because it seems like a new day so it will boost our spirits to start a new one and leave an old one behind.
I've done a lot of stupid mistakes in 2010. From a simple one until the life-threatening one. My first wish, well it's impossible if i wish that i won't face any troubles in 2011. Life is a problem in the very first place. Life won't be that fun when all you can do is fun. So i wish that i could learn from past mistakes in order not to do the same mistake over and over again.
Second wish, i pray for it everyday. I wish that i can join lab-final-exam because some people said that i'm not allowed. But this exam is very important for my GPA. It's 6 SKS. If i can't join it then it will affect my GPA significantly. But i believe in miracles and God's work. He can make something impossible becomes possible. God Almighty. Please answer my pray.
The last wish.
2010 is also about lost. Speaking of wealth or property, that will be uncountable lost. But that's not my focus. I'm talking about losing a friend, friends, best friends, even bestest friends. Yeah, i lost them all. Not all but almost all. But i realize that people come and go in our lives. A sweet hello requires a bitter goodbye in the end. So i wish that i will get substitutes for the lost ones. And be prepared for another lost.
That's all. After all, the day remains the same.
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