Morning Blast

Remember every single moment that i have passed. Everytime i see the places, i see the blast.

I decide to go to Bandung today for runaway vacation. Bandung always becomes stabilizer when i have problems in Jakarta. I know my trip to Bandung will be a walk to remember. Finding past reminders and having those memory blasts. But i can't avoid it forever, it is my hometown anyway.

Yesterday i went to my friend's place so i can go to the station earlier because it is closer from there. When i see the bus shelter, i see [delusion of] you're walking down the stairs. So i take a bow for i don't wanna see that blast.

I arrived at my friend's room. And it's playing like a film without a sound, the scenes when you and me were there. When i cut a bandage for your scars. When i see you lay down there. I closed my eyes for i don't wanna see it.

I take the first train. It's at 5.45am. I woke up late and i walked down the street to the bus shelter. From Roxy to Gambir i should take bus direction to Harmoni before i proceed to Pulogadung. I don't know why busway and its shelter have a lot of memory associated to you. Standing in Harmoni just reminds me of the time when i sat there waiting for you. You came late, and we missed the train so we had to take the last train to Bandung. But i ignore the blast.

It's last minutes, i arrived at the station and the first thing i see is its balcony. I saw you and i there, standing just the two of us. We're waiting for the last train at 7pm. And it was still 3 hours to go.  I run fast for i don't wanna see that blast.

It's enough. It's enough to remember everything. To think about someone who may not even think about me. Thinking about someone who's avoiding me. It's enough.

Memories are supposed to fade. Even if it doesn't. It's okay.

You were the part of my life and you will always be. It just hurts to know that.

- I posted it in a train -